sorry for your lost!!..i am claire's boyfriends Danny Besse and i know what it feels to lose someone so close, my identical twin died from AIDS at 41 and he gotten sick from a woman who didn't tell him she had disease( sharing a needle of heroin/cocaine),. iv'e heard sometime that "time heals all wounds"..well i disagree and with time things do get better but not totally,. for me its a never ended lost..however with me im not 100 percent on the notion we go tom a place called heaven and what helps me is my bro is not suffering no more..but fate ill never understand,. meaning..i was doing the same thing as him and through his death i became so sick that i came close to death many times but 6 months after he died i overdosed on "H"..narcan saved me (3 doses) and that was the last time i ever used-(January 15th 2004---my bro died July 14th 2003)..i thoink the worst part when someone dies is all the regrets of wanting to go back in time and wishing you said this or that and listening and everything that you did,t say or talk about..thats the worst also not knowing if there ok or still alive in their soul..in a fairy place that i heard about long long time ago called "heaven"..---after all of this how do i keep my sanity..i guess its called faith that all will be revealed when its time for me to leave my body and hopefully my soul to meet up and dance..allmost 3 years ago, this coming July 10th will be my anniversary of me getting a cadaver liver transplant and from a woman who died at age 31 from Fentanyl overdose..tell you the truth i really never thought i would be so lucky getting a liver..and after i did i felt very guilty cause i done the damage to my self..but over the years i am so convinced that life on this sometimes God forsaken planet is a HUGE TEST!!..the test is.."no matter what happens we should never give up on God and never allow the devil to win over our lives, our doubts, our pain and suffering..this is what the devil is banking on..he know he can't get the unfortunate souls that passed away for they go to heaven,. in God loving arms..The devil is hoping for the "grievers" he wants us to say " screw you God, where were you to look out after our love ones to pass away so soon!!..THAT IS THE TEST!!...i know you wont read this but if a small chance you do i hope to God it helps..i am sober/clean now 15 years and i dont go to meetings but i do try to keep God in my life and soul..im not perfect and this is why i still think and wonder id my bro, my mom, my Dad, my grandparents and a few friends that also died are even still existing..i lost everyone..BUT..Have I really lost everyone??..only God knows and he wont tell me cause of the big fkn test..BY now..
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ReplyDeletesorry for your lost!!..i am claire's boyfriends Danny Besse and i know what it feels to lose someone so close, my identical twin died from AIDS at 41 and he gotten sick from a woman who didn't tell him she had disease( sharing a needle of heroin/cocaine),. iv'e heard sometime that "time heals all wounds"..well i disagree and with time things do get better but not totally,. for me its a never ended lost..however with me im not 100 percent on the notion we go tom a place called heaven and what helps me is my bro is not suffering no more..but fate ill never understand,. meaning..i was doing the same thing as him and through his death i became so sick that i came close to death many times but 6 months after he died i overdosed on "H"..narcan saved me (3 doses) and that was the last time i ever used-(January 15th 2004---my bro died July 14th 2003)..i thoink the worst part when someone dies is all the regrets of wanting to go back in time and wishing you said this or that and listening and everything that you did,t say or talk about..thats the worst also not knowing if there ok or still alive in their soul..in a fairy place that i heard about long long time ago called "heaven"..---after all of this how do i keep my sanity..i guess its called faith that all will be revealed when its time for me to leave my body and hopefully my soul to meet up and dance..allmost 3 years ago, this coming July 10th will be my anniversary of me getting a cadaver liver transplant and from a woman who died at age 31 from Fentanyl overdose..tell you the truth i really never thought i would be so lucky getting a liver..and after i did i felt very guilty cause i done the damage to my self..but over the years i am so convinced that life on this sometimes God forsaken planet is a HUGE TEST!!..the test is.."no matter what happens we should never give up on God and never allow the devil to win over our lives, our doubts, our pain and suffering..this is what the devil is banking on..he know he can't get the unfortunate souls that passed away for they go to heaven,. in God loving arms..The devil is hoping for the "grievers" he wants us to say " screw you God, where were you to look out after our love ones to pass away so soon!!..THAT IS THE TEST!!...i know you wont read this but if a small chance you do i hope to God it helps..i am sober/clean now 15 years and i dont go to meetings but i do try to keep God in my life and soul..im not perfect and this is why i still think and wonder id my bro, my mom, my Dad, my grandparents and a few friends that also died are even still existing..i lost everyone..BUT..Have I really lost everyone??..only God knows and he wont tell me cause of the big fkn test..BY now..
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